Day 21

I just have to say one thing: Go Cardinals (not St. Louis, I'd rather be dead). I love watching underdog teams go on to win it all. Though I am a Bears fan, and that most of the nation believes they are the TOP dog, I still think it's awesome to see a cinderella type of story.

Being nicotine free has given me the confidence to be better than most people. Though I do have to admit, I slipped again today. It was nasty. I don't know why. It makes no sense. I have no reason to do it. I have been preaching to you about how stupid it is and how gross it is and how much better I feel about myself. But I did it. I am a failure to you all. Forgive me for letting you down. I hope you really don't think less of me. It will no longer happen again. I am still a non-smoker, but my words can only take you so far. I apologize for leading you all on to an awesome finish and then miss the free throw (sports analogy). Can my story go on, or should I start over? Please let me know.