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Lilly is definately the ace of this club. He is the only guy, from what I saw in 2009, that could even be considered an ace. Sure, Big Z had a two hit shut-out against the Giants, but the first part of the season wasn't his best. He's better than that. He has had control and ANGER problems all season. With Lilly being the ace of the club, you put our best right hander, Ryan Dempster on the hill. He has had some fantastic outings this year. Then you make Zambrano the third spot. He will cool down and come out stronger next year, and I see him throwning some more relaxed games. You have to put Wells in the fourth spot. This kid is unbelievable. Throught the first half of the regular season, Randy should have only had one loss. He has great pitches and he is under control. When he is on the mound, the ball game is going at his pace. Now the fifth spot. Well there are three guys in my mind that could fill those spots (or at least compete for them). If Rich Harden does resign, then please put him in. He throws strikes and throws them hard. Tom Gorzelany will help the ball club as a middle reliever more than anything. As for Sean Marshall, he should be in contention for the fifth spot if Harden does walk. Same thing for Angel Guzman. I liked what I saw from these guys. Good stuff. Marmol will maintain his closer role, because I don't care what critics say, this guy is good. If he goes out there, and has his control and is on top of his pitches, he is unstoppable. He doesn't give up hits, it's as simple as that. So for those of you who don't want to read this, here it is in short..
1) Ted Lilly
2) Ryan Dempster
3) Carlos Zambrano
4) Randy Wells
5) Rich Harden/ Sean Marshall/ Angel Guzman
Closer- Carlos Marmol
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
This is a Revolution
Well, I snapped. I broke through. I have come to the realization that my life is the resemblance of a stick in the mud. The little part of the stick, that is sticking out of the mud, is Sarah, giving me air. Other than that, I am a loser. Since graduating high school, back on June 5th, 2008, I have gained 40-45 pounds. I am lazy and irresponsible. I am selfish and undeserving. Although my friends do tell me otherwise, I shouldn't have to prove myself to them. Sure, they may like me and appreciate me, but I need to appreciate myself before I can truly impact their lives. So I have made my decision.
About a year ago, I was enlisted in the U.S. Navy. I was signed on for 5 years and would be going to school in Pensacola, Florida. My job was a CTr, which really means Cryptology Technician with that "r" representing some sort of sub-title. I was terrified of leaving. I had began a relationship that I didn't want to see fall to pieces. I have most of my family around me here. All of my friends are staying here. I just love New Lenox. Yes, I will agree with you, this town can be boring, and we all say how much we hate it, but after realizing that I need more, I appreciate this town so much! But it dawned on me that I was too weak to leave here. So, I dropped out. I gave the recruiters hell, and I backed down.
Last evening, I went and visited some long lost family/friends. It was Cory Ende's grandma and his aunt. I grew up there and spent a lot of time with Gram. We talked about the economy. We talked about the war. We talked about Cory. But before anything was said, I knew. I knew that I was re-enlisting. Nothing has to be said about Cory for me to want to go back. All I had to do was look at him and realize how far he has come. This is the same Cory that drove me down some country road at 90 miles an hour and made me go to the bathroom out the window. This is the same Cory that blew up mailboxes with me. This is the same Cory that ran away from home and came to my house. He tells me story's about how beautiful the world is. He tells me about how the money is. He tells me how awesome his apartment is. He just bought a new truck. But most of all, I can see the discipline in him.
So I knew I was back. I have changed my mind. I am going to re-enlist around December and be in basic training by January. It's best for me. I may be far away, but I will always be a part of New Lenox. I will always be apart of Sarah's heart. I will always be found, sitting on the end of JB's drive way, smoking a cigarette. I will always be found in Timmy's basement playing cards. I will always be found on stage, playing with the youth band. Don't worry, friends, I'm here. I'll always be here. I love you all so much, that I want you to see me succeed.
Don't get me wrong, though; there are plenty of concrete reasons for wanting to go back, too. I am sick and I am tired of being nickeled and dimed (aka "Nickel-Dime aphobia). I can barely make my bills, and tuition goes up, and I have to start paying rent (which doubled since the last time I heard about rent, which seems unfair and doesn't make sense). I am broke and I am sick of it. I am so irresponsible, it's ridiculous. I can't make my bed, I don't put my laundry away, and I just, for some reason, do not like to clean up after myslef. I'll learn that. Plus, while I'm learing this new lifestyle, I'm getting paid. Can you really argue my decision?
About a year ago, I was enlisted in the U.S. Navy. I was signed on for 5 years and would be going to school in Pensacola, Florida. My job was a CTr, which really means Cryptology Technician with that "r" representing some sort of sub-title. I was terrified of leaving. I had began a relationship that I didn't want to see fall to pieces. I have most of my family around me here. All of my friends are staying here. I just love New Lenox. Yes, I will agree with you, this town can be boring, and we all say how much we hate it, but after realizing that I need more, I appreciate this town so much! But it dawned on me that I was too weak to leave here. So, I dropped out. I gave the recruiters hell, and I backed down.
Last evening, I went and visited some long lost family/friends. It was Cory Ende's grandma and his aunt. I grew up there and spent a lot of time with Gram. We talked about the economy. We talked about the war. We talked about Cory. But before anything was said, I knew. I knew that I was re-enlisting. Nothing has to be said about Cory for me to want to go back. All I had to do was look at him and realize how far he has come. This is the same Cory that drove me down some country road at 90 miles an hour and made me go to the bathroom out the window. This is the same Cory that blew up mailboxes with me. This is the same Cory that ran away from home and came to my house. He tells me story's about how beautiful the world is. He tells me about how the money is. He tells me how awesome his apartment is. He just bought a new truck. But most of all, I can see the discipline in him.
So I knew I was back. I have changed my mind. I am going to re-enlist around December and be in basic training by January. It's best for me. I may be far away, but I will always be a part of New Lenox. I will always be apart of Sarah's heart. I will always be found, sitting on the end of JB's drive way, smoking a cigarette. I will always be found in Timmy's basement playing cards. I will always be found on stage, playing with the youth band. Don't worry, friends, I'm here. I'll always be here. I love you all so much, that I want you to see me succeed.
Don't get me wrong, though; there are plenty of concrete reasons for wanting to go back, too. I am sick and I am tired of being nickeled and dimed (aka "Nickel-Dime aphobia). I can barely make my bills, and tuition goes up, and I have to start paying rent (which doubled since the last time I heard about rent, which seems unfair and doesn't make sense). I am broke and I am sick of it. I am so irresponsible, it's ridiculous. I can't make my bed, I don't put my laundry away, and I just, for some reason, do not like to clean up after myslef. I'll learn that. Plus, while I'm learing this new lifestyle, I'm getting paid. Can you really argue my decision?
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Process of Eating a Chipotle Barbacoa Burrito
Step 1:
After ordering, wrangle your beast over to a table. Slowly unwrap the monstrosity. Let it sit and soak up the "Ooooh's" and "Ahhhh's" from the onlookers. Get up and get a lot of napkins. Slowly let out a comforting belch. Return to your saddle.
Step 2:
Grab the burrito with your left hand, somewhere near the bottom. Place your right hand underneath where you are going to take bites (this may be switched do to handedness). Stare the bull in the face and use your mind to let it know that it is about to be slain.
Step 3:
Clench your fangs above your right hand, into the burritos tightly wrapped tortilla (remember to bite hard, because it will lash back). Tear fully through the tortilla. Continue this process until you reach your right hand. Upon this happening, slide your hand down the burrito to avoid being bitten. Keep doing this until the burritos innards begin to spew from within.
Step 4:
When the innards have properly been spilled onto the wrapper inside the basket which once held the monster, place the burrito back in it's original starting place. Swallow whatever bite you have. Stare at that mother fucker and tell him to GO TO HELL!
Step 5 & 6:
Grab "Chips" bag. Remove three to five chips. Begin to scoop some of the burritos innards onto the chip. Eat until mainly tortilla is left.
Step 7:
When there is mainly tortilla sitting inside the basket, with the beasts insides lying all around it, grab the fork again. Begin shoveling the tortilla in your mouth. Don't get too much though. This is a high risk task, and thou must take caution. Take breaks to chew and taunt the remains of the demon food.
Step 8:
Whence tortilla is gone, take a second and ponder at what's left. Get the mindset that the battle is near an end. Grab five to seven chips. Go for the backdoor scoop and scoop remains onto the fork. Continue this process until burrito is gone.
Well, the task has been handled. How do you feel? Rise up, and lift your arms into the air! Exclaim to the world the feat you have just overcome! Let them know, that any burrito, of any land may wish to bring fear among eaters everywhere, but you, Champion of All will conquer that bitch!
This blog is dedicated to Dave Cawall. Nice work :)
After ordering, wrangle your beast over to a table. Slowly unwrap the monstrosity. Let it sit and soak up the "Ooooh's" and "Ahhhh's" from the onlookers. Get up and get a lot of napkins. Slowly let out a comforting belch. Return to your saddle.
Step 2:
Grab the burrito with your left hand, somewhere near the bottom. Place your right hand underneath where you are going to take bites (this may be switched do to handedness). Stare the bull in the face and use your mind to let it know that it is about to be slain.
Step 3:
Clench your fangs above your right hand, into the burritos tightly wrapped tortilla (remember to bite hard, because it will lash back). Tear fully through the tortilla. Continue this process until you reach your right hand. Upon this happening, slide your hand down the burrito to avoid being bitten. Keep doing this until the burritos innards begin to spew from within.
Step 4:
When the innards have properly been spilled onto the wrapper inside the basket which once held the monster, place the burrito back in it's original starting place. Swallow whatever bite you have. Stare at that mother fucker and tell him to GO TO HELL!
Step 5 & 6:
Grab "Chips" bag. Remove three to five chips. Begin to scoop some of the burritos innards onto the chip. Eat until mainly tortilla is left.
Step 7:
When there is mainly tortilla sitting inside the basket, with the beasts insides lying all around it, grab the fork again. Begin shoveling the tortilla in your mouth. Don't get too much though. This is a high risk task, and thou must take caution. Take breaks to chew and taunt the remains of the demon food.
Step 8:
Whence tortilla is gone, take a second and ponder at what's left. Get the mindset that the battle is near an end. Grab five to seven chips. Go for the backdoor scoop and scoop remains onto the fork. Continue this process until burrito is gone.
Well, the task has been handled. How do you feel? Rise up, and lift your arms into the air! Exclaim to the world the feat you have just overcome! Let them know, that any burrito, of any land may wish to bring fear among eaters everywhere, but you, Champion of All will conquer that bitch!
This blog is dedicated to Dave Cawall. Nice work :)
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Cruel and Unusual
I just recently found this article on Facebook entitled "Death Penalty for Keith Randulich." These people that are in this group are sick. These are the people that agree with the death penalty. Listen to how sick they are. Except for Nick James, his comment is sensible and non-barbaric.
Connor Prokop (Lincoln - Way East High School) wroteat 10:34pm yesterday
actually....he should be put in for life.....that way he gets raped everyday....THAT is torture(if u dont like it)
Michael Cornell You wanna know torture, howabout we tape his fingers together as we hang him, so he will sruggle trying to grab on for one last breath. THAT is torture.
Michael Cornell
yeah, tortured. he gets to use exercise equipment, that citizens cant because we have to pay for a club membership, for free, then he can watch all the FREE cable we can't, has a guaranteed meal, and a guatanteed place to sleep. sounds like torture to me guys.
Kaytie Jaskowiak-Martin
personally..i believe that if he is found guilty he should have to suffer for what he did. No one should get away with this. But think of how he will be treated in prison. He will be tortured and he will pay for what he did. If you kill someone..they can no longer suffer. i say..he should go to prison for the rest of his life. And have to live with what he did..knowing that shed still be alive if it wasnt for him..and have to think about what it does to his parents..and seeing them the way they will be because of this.
Michael Cornell
its a temporary ban, and the trial is not over. And in all honesty, it hasnt been proven in court, but he did it. Just look at the facts, the answer of who did it shouts his name.
Nick James
He was in my class and I did not know him well, but he hasn't been found guilty and he did not admit to killing her, so you may be agreeing for someone innocent to be put to death, also Illinois death penalty has been suspended, so exert your time for a cause that can actually be won and has a use in society.
Chris Graf
idk i mean i dont know him but don't you think its a little harsh to give him death i mean send him to the mental hospital his parents just lost one and they will lose him to if they kill him. Lets not think abot him and think about the family they just had him kill there baby. I just think he should be locked up
Danielle Marie
i went to school with him from 1st to 8th grade. he never seemed messed up or anything. he a was nice kid then til now
Mike Mitchell
This kid needs either 1. To have the death penalty... who cares if its expensive, look what the hell he did for fuck sake, or 2. be put into a mental institution for the rest of his life. and then his parents behind him, because honestly, hes their OWN kid... if they couldnt tell that he was a little bit loopy before he just straight up slices and dices up his sister... like they obviously arent doing a very good parenting job
Steve D Mihaljevic
Cory,the cost to keep a person in prison is about 100-140k a year, the cost to give him the death pentaly is FAAAAAR CHEAPER over the long haul.. What you want to spean 7.5-8 million dollars to keep this guy in prison the next 60 years! Fuck em.QUOTE FROM A PREVIOUS POSTER CORY BELOW>>>>>"The thing about the dealth penalty that many people don't understand, is that is it really expensive. With all the appeals a person can go through, it is just dragging out the sentance on death row. I have attached an article that kind of explains California's issues with the death penalty, it is pretty much the same idea. http://www.finalcall.com/artman/publish/article_4731.shtmlBut I do think that this group is kind of insensitive to his family. Think about it; they have already lost one child horrifically, and they are about to lose their other. "
Steve D Mihaljevic
Yeah yeah everyone thinks divorced parents half sisters and brothers and collapse of the family unit is not havign an effect on kids and society.. KEEP DREAMING FOLKS>> KEEEEP ON DRINKING THE COOL AIDERiiiight its all fine no big deal, until a guy slices his half sister up because he is jealous of her getting affection and his real parent isnt around etc etc.
Kevin Burk
sick fuck. give him death
Kevin Kiley
i went to school with this kid since first grade. he was on my basketball team and everything. he never seemed that fucked up but its horrible.
Anna Peterson
I feel we shouldn't stoop down to his level and decide his fate, like he did with that four year old girl...so i disagree with the death penalty for him..but i feel that he should spend the rest of his life in jail...hopefully the memory of him killing that little girl haunting him.
Justin Bramstadt
kill this motherfucker, if yhe goons in jail dont get him first, wat a sick bastard i hope he dies a horrible death
Derrick Dahlman
bet he only gets 60-life/mental inst.
Ryan Matusik
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/02/06/illinois-keeping-death-pe_n_164767.html...
Carollynn Franson
this kid lives down the street from me.................. scary he should burn in hell
Bob Noetzel
they shoud burn this pussy and let the family members of the girl piss on his ashes
What does cost have to do with someones life?! To kill someone because they killed is nomadic and silly. It isn't going to solve anything, but give the people with so much hate for this kid the satisfaction they want.
Connor Prokop (Lincoln - Way East High School) wroteat 10:34pm yesterday
actually....he should be put in for life.....that way he gets raped everyday....THAT is torture(if u dont like it)
Michael Cornell You wanna know torture, howabout we tape his fingers together as we hang him, so he will sruggle trying to grab on for one last breath. THAT is torture.
Michael Cornell
yeah, tortured. he gets to use exercise equipment, that citizens cant because we have to pay for a club membership, for free, then he can watch all the FREE cable we can't, has a guaranteed meal, and a guatanteed place to sleep. sounds like torture to me guys.
Kaytie Jaskowiak-Martin
personally..i believe that if he is found guilty he should have to suffer for what he did. No one should get away with this. But think of how he will be treated in prison. He will be tortured and he will pay for what he did. If you kill someone..they can no longer suffer. i say..he should go to prison for the rest of his life. And have to live with what he did..knowing that shed still be alive if it wasnt for him..and have to think about what it does to his parents..and seeing them the way they will be because of this.
Michael Cornell
its a temporary ban, and the trial is not over. And in all honesty, it hasnt been proven in court, but he did it. Just look at the facts, the answer of who did it shouts his name.
Nick James
He was in my class and I did not know him well, but he hasn't been found guilty and he did not admit to killing her, so you may be agreeing for someone innocent to be put to death, also Illinois death penalty has been suspended, so exert your time for a cause that can actually be won and has a use in society.
Chris Graf
idk i mean i dont know him but don't you think its a little harsh to give him death i mean send him to the mental hospital his parents just lost one and they will lose him to if they kill him. Lets not think abot him and think about the family they just had him kill there baby. I just think he should be locked up
Danielle Marie
i went to school with him from 1st to 8th grade. he never seemed messed up or anything. he a was nice kid then til now
Mike Mitchell
This kid needs either 1. To have the death penalty... who cares if its expensive, look what the hell he did for fuck sake, or 2. be put into a mental institution for the rest of his life. and then his parents behind him, because honestly, hes their OWN kid... if they couldnt tell that he was a little bit loopy before he just straight up slices and dices up his sister... like they obviously arent doing a very good parenting job
Steve D Mihaljevic
Cory,the cost to keep a person in prison is about 100-140k a year, the cost to give him the death pentaly is FAAAAAR CHEAPER over the long haul.. What you want to spean 7.5-8 million dollars to keep this guy in prison the next 60 years! Fuck em.QUOTE FROM A PREVIOUS POSTER CORY BELOW>>>>>"The thing about the dealth penalty that many people don't understand, is that is it really expensive. With all the appeals a person can go through, it is just dragging out the sentance on death row. I have attached an article that kind of explains California's issues with the death penalty, it is pretty much the same idea. http://www.finalcall.com/artman/publish/article_4731.shtmlBut I do think that this group is kind of insensitive to his family. Think about it; they have already lost one child horrifically, and they are about to lose their other. "
Steve D Mihaljevic
Yeah yeah everyone thinks divorced parents half sisters and brothers and collapse of the family unit is not havign an effect on kids and society.. KEEP DREAMING FOLKS>> KEEEEP ON DRINKING THE COOL AIDERiiiight its all fine no big deal, until a guy slices his half sister up because he is jealous of her getting affection and his real parent isnt around etc etc.
Kevin Burk
sick fuck. give him death
Kevin Kiley
i went to school with this kid since first grade. he was on my basketball team and everything. he never seemed that fucked up but its horrible.
Anna Peterson
I feel we shouldn't stoop down to his level and decide his fate, like he did with that four year old girl...so i disagree with the death penalty for him..but i feel that he should spend the rest of his life in jail...hopefully the memory of him killing that little girl haunting him.
Justin Bramstadt
kill this motherfucker, if yhe goons in jail dont get him first, wat a sick bastard i hope he dies a horrible death
Derrick Dahlman
bet he only gets 60-life/mental inst.
Ryan Matusik
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/02/06/illinois-keeping-death-pe_n_164767.html...
Carollynn Franson
this kid lives down the street from me.................. scary he should burn in hell
Bob Noetzel
they shoud burn this pussy and let the family members of the girl piss on his ashes
What does cost have to do with someones life?! To kill someone because they killed is nomadic and silly. It isn't going to solve anything, but give the people with so much hate for this kid the satisfaction they want.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
A swift kick
Why does this happen? You tell me this, you tell me that. You want to get away with the stupidest excuses that always fool me. I'm glad I was a part of your weekend. I'm glad you really know what you want to do, because I don't. I hope you know that you make me feel like crap, right now. You ever been kicked in the balls? Guess not, because that's what this feels like. It makes me happy that you do what you want to do and don't have to tell me. It's awesome that you jump to conclusions. I am so grateful that you think I am a jerk all the time. It makes me happy to know that you doubt my love. I don't want to lay here anymore and take this. I'm better than this. Don't jump to conclusions on me. Don't just fucking assume stupid stuff about me. Because it hurts. It burns and I'm bleeding. I could really use an ice pack...
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Frustrating
Hear me out. I know I rant and rave about politics and Republicans and conservative folk all the time, but this is way out of line. I am so sick and tired of it. I am going to let everyone know where I stand politically.
Jobs
You know what is truly ironic? A good, working man that I know, who has been breaking his back for years, doesn't vote Democrat. How does that make sense? What kind of bonus is he getting that I'm not seeing? The Deomocratic party is there for the working class citizen! The Deomocrats represent the unions! Liberals everywhere are trying to insure that your job within a union is kept here in this country and held by good working people like yourselves! Is it because the Democratic nominee for president was an African-American? This guy works his tail off everyday and walks away with nothing because some big company run by snooty rich Republicans is buying it out! Just a general point...
Gay Marriage
Do you understand the rights the gay community is losing by losing their AMERICAN RIGHT to get married? They lose the rights to claim eachother on their taxes, they lose the right to Death rights (i.e. Will's and what not), they lose Insurance rights, and many more. Who gave us the right to tell someone they cannot be married and happy? Ever read the constitution? "The right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness." I know as a Christian I am "supposed" to think that wrong. Well, I do not agree with it, but as a free American citizen, people of this country have the right to pursue HAPPYNESS and receive the rights they are given in the Constitution.
Abortion
Same concept here. As American's, we can choose anything we wish! To have an abortion is murder, but it is an American given right to choose. It is not up to us to tell someone "no." I understand it is murder, and it is wrong, but it is not our desicsion; it's in their hands.
Death Penalty
The death penalty is a ruthless and cruel punishment for anybody. Who gave jailors and judges the right to sentence someone to the end of their life? They are a living human being! Many Republicans don't think this is a problem. But if you are so against abortion and abortion is "killing a himan life," how is the death penalty different? It's murder!
There are just some of the things I had to rant about. Something just came up here at work and I am scared. I am so nervous and probably screwed. I am working part-time here at the bank. If I wish to transfer with an associates in science to be majoring in Physics, I need to take a math class this semster (Math 170). If I do not, I will be a year behind. But I also have to be full time to maintain my health insurance. So I had to take this class from 7:25 to 8:50. I work daily from 6:45 to 12:00. The class is on Monday Wednesday and Friday. I would be losing ten hours a week. Tuition went up. I owe 50 bucks more a month. I could barely make my school payments last semester. I don't know what to do. I need those hours, if not more. I need some help. Either I quit school and try for full-time, I win the lottery, I quit this job and go work for a buddy of mine, making some sick dough, or I re-enlist in the Navy. I don't know what to do. If this economy wasn't shot to shit by these greedy God damned Republicans, I might not have this problem, but I do. So fuck you, conservatives. Your greedy asses aren't paying my tuition bill. What the hell am I supposed to do? I try and educate myself so I can make money and be higher up, like they believe in, but I need some sort of support. I hate how these bastards think that you work for what you have. Well what the fuck am I working for?
Jobs
You know what is truly ironic? A good, working man that I know, who has been breaking his back for years, doesn't vote Democrat. How does that make sense? What kind of bonus is he getting that I'm not seeing? The Deomocratic party is there for the working class citizen! The Deomocrats represent the unions! Liberals everywhere are trying to insure that your job within a union is kept here in this country and held by good working people like yourselves! Is it because the Democratic nominee for president was an African-American? This guy works his tail off everyday and walks away with nothing because some big company run by snooty rich Republicans is buying it out! Just a general point...
Gay Marriage
Do you understand the rights the gay community is losing by losing their AMERICAN RIGHT to get married? They lose the rights to claim eachother on their taxes, they lose the right to Death rights (i.e. Will's and what not), they lose Insurance rights, and many more. Who gave us the right to tell someone they cannot be married and happy? Ever read the constitution? "The right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness." I know as a Christian I am "supposed" to think that wrong. Well, I do not agree with it, but as a free American citizen, people of this country have the right to pursue HAPPYNESS and receive the rights they are given in the Constitution.
Abortion
Same concept here. As American's, we can choose anything we wish! To have an abortion is murder, but it is an American given right to choose. It is not up to us to tell someone "no." I understand it is murder, and it is wrong, but it is not our desicsion; it's in their hands.
Death Penalty
The death penalty is a ruthless and cruel punishment for anybody. Who gave jailors and judges the right to sentence someone to the end of their life? They are a living human being! Many Republicans don't think this is a problem. But if you are so against abortion and abortion is "killing a himan life," how is the death penalty different? It's murder!
There are just some of the things I had to rant about. Something just came up here at work and I am scared. I am so nervous and probably screwed. I am working part-time here at the bank. If I wish to transfer with an associates in science to be majoring in Physics, I need to take a math class this semster (Math 170). If I do not, I will be a year behind. But I also have to be full time to maintain my health insurance. So I had to take this class from 7:25 to 8:50. I work daily from 6:45 to 12:00. The class is on Monday Wednesday and Friday. I would be losing ten hours a week. Tuition went up. I owe 50 bucks more a month. I could barely make my school payments last semester. I don't know what to do. I need those hours, if not more. I need some help. Either I quit school and try for full-time, I win the lottery, I quit this job and go work for a buddy of mine, making some sick dough, or I re-enlist in the Navy. I don't know what to do. If this economy wasn't shot to shit by these greedy God damned Republicans, I might not have this problem, but I do. So fuck you, conservatives. Your greedy asses aren't paying my tuition bill. What the hell am I supposed to do? I try and educate myself so I can make money and be higher up, like they believe in, but I need some sort of support. I hate how these bastards think that you work for what you have. Well what the fuck am I working for?
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
H1N1
This swine flu thing is getting ridiculous. It's not making any sense. So many people die each week from the normal flu. I think I heard some ridiculous number, like 36,000 people a week! That's insanity. There have been like 100 deaths from Swine Flu in two weeks.... not so deadly.
It's also ridiculous that people decide to blame Mexico and random Mexicans for the outbreak. That is freaking garbage.
There is nothing to freak out about, people. Swine Flu is just another "West Nile." IT'S NOTHING! People die from it, yea, but there are tons of diseases that kill people. Cancer, AIDS, Autism. This is out of control. I mean, I have been experiencing aches, pains, fever, coughs, and congestion. Nothing to *oink* worry about.
It's also ridiculous that people decide to blame Mexico and random Mexicans for the outbreak. That is freaking garbage.
There is nothing to freak out about, people. Swine Flu is just another "West Nile." IT'S NOTHING! People die from it, yea, but there are tons of diseases that kill people. Cancer, AIDS, Autism. This is out of control. I mean, I have been experiencing aches, pains, fever, coughs, and congestion. Nothing to *oink* worry about.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Sick and Tired of this CRAP
Values. Do they really make up a political party, or a non-profit organization. No. There are only individual values that each and every one of us follows. I personally, agree with Barack Obama on almost every aspect of his political campaign. That doesn't mean they make up my life. Some people claim that I have no values and that I will NEVER understand the "Good Conservative Values." I don't care. I see a lack of values anyway.
Conservatives ARE racists. Liberals got women the right to vote. Liberals got African-Americans the right to vote. You can't have a political conversation with a conservative without some sort of racist remark towards Barack Obama. "BaLACK Obama" or "Don't worry, the south will rise again." It's crap. It's also been proven that republicans are dumb. http://chexydecimal.blogspot.com/2008/09/proof-that-republicans-are-dumb.html
Read it, it's the truth.
Please, DO NOT comment on this if you are a pissed off republican who wants to start a fight. Well, I guess I couldn't be mad at you, I mean, it is in your values to start fights...
Conservatives ARE racists. Liberals got women the right to vote. Liberals got African-Americans the right to vote. You can't have a political conversation with a conservative without some sort of racist remark towards Barack Obama. "BaLACK Obama" or "Don't worry, the south will rise again." It's crap. It's also been proven that republicans are dumb. http://chexydecimal.blogspot.com/2008/09/proof-that-republicans-are-dumb.html
Read it, it's the truth.
Please, DO NOT comment on this if you are a pissed off republican who wants to start a fight. Well, I guess I couldn't be mad at you, I mean, it is in your values to start fights...
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
I'm bashing Republican "values" because they are garbage. Who are you tell a girl she can't have an abortion? It is our job as Christians to pray for people in that situation, not tear away their rights. Who are you to tell a gay couple they can't get married? Again, same situation. I don't support abortion but I support war and the death ... Read Morepenalty, where MORE PEOPLE DIE than in an abortion clinic? I believe in big corporations coming in and buying up all the little buisnesses? I hope that people that agree with that, lose their job or get their wages lowered because they think it's smart to let the rich take over. And do NOT tell me not to bash "republican values" because I do know what they "are." YOU stop bashing Obama. The only thing you got on him is that he is black, hence, you are a racist republican.
I am so sick of hearing this jargon about Republican values. They are not in existence and are garbage. I know way too many people that vote Republican that are middle-class, hard-working, good citizens. IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! REPUBLICANS WANT TO BUY YOUR COMPANY AND HIRE NEW THEIR OWN PEOPLE!!!
I hate it. A little bit about the elephant, by Andrew Homerding.
I am so sick of hearing this jargon about Republican values. They are not in existence and are garbage. I know way too many people that vote Republican that are middle-class, hard-working, good citizens. IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! REPUBLICANS WANT TO BUY YOUR COMPANY AND HIRE NEW THEIR OWN PEOPLE!!!
I hate it. A little bit about the elephant, by Andrew Homerding.
Monday, March 2, 2009
March?
I thought March was meteorological spring! There's snow on the ground! Its 12 degrees outside!
I just want all who read to know, I took a pretty bad beat this weekend at the poker tables. I lost a lot of money in single hands. I am taking a month long hiatus. Many will say, "It's like giving up poker for lent." But I'm not catholic. I'd rather not talk about that. So, I hope, after this break, I can go on a run and win that dough back.
I thought I was going to lose a lot more this week. I called in to work on Saturday, I had a crappy week, and it all just sucked. I went to give guitar lessons yesterday and afterwords, we watched a bunch of movies (i.e. Fireproof, Flywheel, and Facing the Giants). Great movies. I learned so much about being a man of wisdom and love. That things have to be done with my whole heart. For me to be like Christ, I have to love like him. I am a changed person after watching those movies.
Oh yea! (Cubs-13 White Sox- 0) 2/28/09
I just want all who read to know, I took a pretty bad beat this weekend at the poker tables. I lost a lot of money in single hands. I am taking a month long hiatus. Many will say, "It's like giving up poker for lent." But I'm not catholic. I'd rather not talk about that. So, I hope, after this break, I can go on a run and win that dough back.
I thought I was going to lose a lot more this week. I called in to work on Saturday, I had a crappy week, and it all just sucked. I went to give guitar lessons yesterday and afterwords, we watched a bunch of movies (i.e. Fireproof, Flywheel, and Facing the Giants). Great movies. I learned so much about being a man of wisdom and love. That things have to be done with my whole heart. For me to be like Christ, I have to love like him. I am a changed person after watching those movies.
Oh yea! (Cubs-13 White Sox- 0) 2/28/09
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Pretty Depressing (no pun intended)
I was recently diagnosed with manic depression and panic disorder. I never thought this would be me, but it is. I take a perscription Lexapro pill every day and I have an "emergency" panic pill like Wesley in the movie Wanted. I always used to spend my time making fun of people with this disorder. I would say "Oh, they're just looking for an excuse to see a doctor!" or "Those people just need to chill out." Well, as a matter of fact, that is the most difficult thing to do. When I get frustrated or upset or worried, it takes me hours to cool off. Now, with the aid of my medicine, I can cool down in minutes. The Lexapro, which usually takes about 2 weeks to take effect, has shown improvements in me over 6 days. Just hope, for me, that this all works out!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
The Big Finish
I wrote this very elaborate, lovely blog last night and when I went to publish it, I lost my Internet connection. Sorry, I was so mad, I wasn't even going to try and make a new one. So here it is.
30 days have come and gone. What have we learned? After three years of smoking, someone can kick the habit. Even though they slip here and there, it is still accomplish able. Quitting is presented as such a difficult task. I really didn't find it as challenging as I thought. Of course, the process sucked, but it was more or less fun. It was entertaining!
I know this sounds ridiculous to those who have seen me smoke on this "entertaining" trip, but I am a non-smoker. I do not rely on cigarettes to get me through the day. The main goal has been reached and I no longer have to rely on something so bad. If I keep praying and relying on Jesus, I will get by just fine.
I want to thank everybody who has been reading. Thank you so much. Just knowing that people view this site is awesome. I am not going to be writing a book, because this is just not as credible as I thought it would have been. I hope this has been interesting to you.
I will be continuing this blog, but not with a day counter anymore. It also may not be as frequent. But feel free to keep reading.
Thank you, Father, for the strength and focus I have needed. Thank you for these people and they're commitment to me. Forgive me for the slip ups, but give me the strength to keep going. In your glorified name I pray, Amen.
30 days have come and gone. What have we learned? After three years of smoking, someone can kick the habit. Even though they slip here and there, it is still accomplish able. Quitting is presented as such a difficult task. I really didn't find it as challenging as I thought. Of course, the process sucked, but it was more or less fun. It was entertaining!
I know this sounds ridiculous to those who have seen me smoke on this "entertaining" trip, but I am a non-smoker. I do not rely on cigarettes to get me through the day. The main goal has been reached and I no longer have to rely on something so bad. If I keep praying and relying on Jesus, I will get by just fine.
I want to thank everybody who has been reading. Thank you so much. Just knowing that people view this site is awesome. I am not going to be writing a book, because this is just not as credible as I thought it would have been. I hope this has been interesting to you.
I will be continuing this blog, but not with a day counter anymore. It also may not be as frequent. But feel free to keep reading.
Thank you, Father, for the strength and focus I have needed. Thank you for these people and they're commitment to me. Forgive me for the slip ups, but give me the strength to keep going. In your glorified name I pray, Amen.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Day 28 and 29
Well, it seems as if we are nearing the end of a journey. I have been slipping down this road, as I have written before. But I think it is OK to not even think about that and think about the ultimate task at hand; my rid of nicotine addiction. Although I have smoked on this path, it wasn't a wasted one. I feel like a better person. I have become stronger. These slip ups will happen no more.
One more day, people. Just pray I get through that one. I hope to finish up this 30 day series with a nice run around the block with my new lungs. It will be nice to actually not feel like I am having a heart attack just from a simple exercise. And if it does still feel that way, then I an going to Dr. Badescu immediately.
One more day, people. Just pray I get through that one. I hope to finish up this 30 day series with a nice run around the block with my new lungs. It will be nice to actually not feel like I am having a heart attack just from a simple exercise. And if it does still feel that way, then I an going to Dr. Badescu immediately.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Day 27
It's Friday night and I am going to spend it doing my taxes. Hopefully my return will be as much as calculated. This was my biggest grossing year yet and I am paying for school out of pocket. It's nice.
Practice for worship last night was very "tense." I was scared. As soon as I stepped on the stage, I felt the frustration. Steve was very forceful. Everybody looked glum. We did like a 15 minute sound check. All of it totally reflected onto me. I became very angry and tired and upset. I just wanted to shove that acoustic guitar down Steve's throat.
The warm weather is definately feeling very nice. I remember, when I used to smoke, I would leave my windows down 24/7, unless it were going to rain or go below 30 degrees. But I just recently realized how much this summer is going to suck worse than this winter. My car doesn't have AC and I like the windows down anyways. It is going to be such a tease to leave the windows down and drive. Driving was the worst for me. I could smoke 3 cigarettes in a 20 minute drive because I was bored. Now, just turn up the jams!
Practice for worship last night was very "tense." I was scared. As soon as I stepped on the stage, I felt the frustration. Steve was very forceful. Everybody looked glum. We did like a 15 minute sound check. All of it totally reflected onto me. I became very angry and tired and upset. I just wanted to shove that acoustic guitar down Steve's throat.
The warm weather is definately feeling very nice. I remember, when I used to smoke, I would leave my windows down 24/7, unless it were going to rain or go below 30 degrees. But I just recently realized how much this summer is going to suck worse than this winter. My car doesn't have AC and I like the windows down anyways. It is going to be such a tease to leave the windows down and drive. Driving was the worst for me. I could smoke 3 cigarettes in a 20 minute drive because I was bored. Now, just turn up the jams!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Day 26
I just found out the changes. I am getting back the most money I've ever had. My taxes rocked! I can't wait to be financially stable again.
Online poker players suck.
Well, today was my first math test. I was so nervous. Even though I know the material, I was totally scared. Some of the figures were ridiculous. Things didn't really reduce well and the graphs were weird. Ugh. I have that feeling that I bombed it! I don't know.
Five days. I am going to St. Louis (If I can afford it).
Online poker players suck.
Well, today was my first math test. I was so nervous. Even though I know the material, I was totally scared. Some of the figures were ridiculous. Things didn't really reduce well and the graphs were weird. Ugh. I have that feeling that I bombed it! I don't know.
Five days. I am going to St. Louis (If I can afford it).
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Day 25
Has anyone ever seen the movie, Blow? It is so good. I wish I could sell drugs and make millions. It would be immoral, but awesome. Tons of money sounds so good, right now. I just would never want to live in Columbia.
I was totally bashed today for being an Obama supporter. I fold so bad under pressure, and I sure was pressured. It was so horrifying. "Why do you support him? He's making the country go bankrupt!" I'm pretty sure Bush got us there...
Cigarette tax needs to be 100 percent. Fair or unfair, it benefits EVERYONE!
I was totally bashed today for being an Obama supporter. I fold so bad under pressure, and I sure was pressured. It was so horrifying. "Why do you support him? He's making the country go bankrupt!" I'm pretty sure Bush got us there...
Cigarette tax needs to be 100 percent. Fair or unfair, it benefits EVERYONE!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Day 24
People can really have influence on each other. I look to so many people for counsel. It just sucks because one of the people I look to, ignores me and never really wants to listen. It kind of makes me sad.
I don't know why, but I've been really depressed. I probably don't show it, but I really have been. I think with all the homework and work and lack of sleep, it all just adds up. I have had so many headaches lately. Ugh. I have no room to complain since I am barely even into the real world yet.
Maybe I need a new form of counsel. Should I go to a couselor? I don't know. I just wanna vent at someone!
I don't know why, but I've been really depressed. I probably don't show it, but I really have been. I think with all the homework and work and lack of sleep, it all just adds up. I have had so many headaches lately. Ugh. I have no room to complain since I am barely even into the real world yet.
Maybe I need a new form of counsel. Should I go to a couselor? I don't know. I just wanna vent at someone!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Day 23
Monday nights never are fun for me. I know it's monday, and what kind of fun is there to be had on a Monday night, right? Baracco's for cards. Early bed time. Online poker. The list is long.
Dr. Lee is just one silly little guy. I am going to tell you the joke he told us (remember, this is a little asian man from who is not taller than my man boobs).
Our class was saying that we were going to have a bad day if we had to do a bunch of homework. He says this, "Oh no, you want to hear bad day? I got out of shower this morning and put shirt on and button, it fall off. I say 'this is going to be bad day.' Then, I go to put on my glasses and, uh, the lens fall out. 'This going to be bad day.' As I walk out the door, I grab briefcase and handle break off. 'This going to be bad day!' Now, all day, I be worried to go to bathroom!"
Endo Story.
Dr. Lee is just one silly little guy. I am going to tell you the joke he told us (remember, this is a little asian man from who is not taller than my man boobs).
Our class was saying that we were going to have a bad day if we had to do a bunch of homework. He says this, "Oh no, you want to hear bad day? I got out of shower this morning and put shirt on and button, it fall off. I say 'this is going to be bad day.' Then, I go to put on my glasses and, uh, the lens fall out. 'This going to be bad day.' As I walk out the door, I grab briefcase and handle break off. 'This going to be bad day!' Now, all day, I be worried to go to bathroom!"
Endo Story.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Day 22
This post will offend some people. I apologize in advance.
I don't understand republicans. "Balack Obama?" Are you kidding me? That is the dumbest thing I have ever heard! Honestly, most of my "left-sided" friends are 100 percent against Obama. Which makes no sense. There are three people on my mind that I am thinking of. I am not going to name names because that would be school yard talk.
These people stand, in this country, as a working citizen. They work hard for their money and they know it. They are proud of that. They believe in an equal labor force (i.e. a labor union). But for some reason, they voted for the candidate who is AGAINST LABOR UNIONS AND LABOR ORGANIZATIONS. Two of the people I am thinking of work VERY hard. I have seen one of them come home in a sweat, even after driving an hour to get home.
One of the other persons I am thinking of is totally anti-abortion. Same here! I am not about to preach to you again and again about my views on abortion and America! It's ridiculous.
Basically what I am trying to say is this: many of the people that voted republican in the 2008 presidential election voted that way because Barack Obama is of African decent. They are afraid of change. That's OK, but to base you political standpoint and become an UNMOVABLE object on something so silly?! I have never seen such mediocrity.
Every freaking time I turn on the T.V. and PRESIDENT Obama is on there, all my republican "friends/family" have to go and say something; whether it being about him being black or whatever. It drives me absolutely nuts! Most of the republicans now a days are Christians or Catholics. They should know that God didn't give them the right to judge. Did God tell them to be unfair?
I know I probably missed a lot and will probably get corrected or rebuddled by a conservative reader, but whatever. It's late, I have to be up in 5 hours for work. Leave me alone and listen to what I had to say.
I'm sorry for being so assertive. I didn't smoke today.
I don't understand republicans. "Balack Obama?" Are you kidding me? That is the dumbest thing I have ever heard! Honestly, most of my "left-sided" friends are 100 percent against Obama. Which makes no sense. There are three people on my mind that I am thinking of. I am not going to name names because that would be school yard talk.
These people stand, in this country, as a working citizen. They work hard for their money and they know it. They are proud of that. They believe in an equal labor force (i.e. a labor union). But for some reason, they voted for the candidate who is AGAINST LABOR UNIONS AND LABOR ORGANIZATIONS. Two of the people I am thinking of work VERY hard. I have seen one of them come home in a sweat, even after driving an hour to get home.
One of the other persons I am thinking of is totally anti-abortion. Same here! I am not about to preach to you again and again about my views on abortion and America! It's ridiculous.
Basically what I am trying to say is this: many of the people that voted republican in the 2008 presidential election voted that way because Barack Obama is of African decent. They are afraid of change. That's OK, but to base you political standpoint and become an UNMOVABLE object on something so silly?! I have never seen such mediocrity.
Every freaking time I turn on the T.V. and PRESIDENT Obama is on there, all my republican "friends/family" have to go and say something; whether it being about him being black or whatever. It drives me absolutely nuts! Most of the republicans now a days are Christians or Catholics. They should know that God didn't give them the right to judge. Did God tell them to be unfair?
I know I probably missed a lot and will probably get corrected or rebuddled by a conservative reader, but whatever. It's late, I have to be up in 5 hours for work. Leave me alone and listen to what I had to say.
I'm sorry for being so assertive. I didn't smoke today.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Day 21
I just have to say one thing: Go Cardinals (not St. Louis, I'd rather be dead). I love watching underdog teams go on to win it all. Though I am a Bears fan, and that most of the nation believes they are the TOP dog, I still think it's awesome to see a cinderella type of story.
Being nicotine free has given me the confidence to be better than most people. Though I do have to admit, I slipped again today. It was nasty. I don't know why. It makes no sense. I have no reason to do it. I have been preaching to you about how stupid it is and how gross it is and how much better I feel about myself. But I did it. I am a failure to you all. Forgive me for letting you down. I hope you really don't think less of me. It will no longer happen again. I am still a non-smoker, but my words can only take you so far. I apologize for leading you all on to an awesome finish and then miss the free throw (sports analogy). Can my story go on, or should I start over? Please let me know.
Being nicotine free has given me the confidence to be better than most people. Though I do have to admit, I slipped again today. It was nasty. I don't know why. It makes no sense. I have no reason to do it. I have been preaching to you about how stupid it is and how gross it is and how much better I feel about myself. But I did it. I am a failure to you all. Forgive me for letting you down. I hope you really don't think less of me. It will no longer happen again. I am still a non-smoker, but my words can only take you so far. I apologize for leading you all on to an awesome finish and then miss the free throw (sports analogy). Can my story go on, or should I start over? Please let me know.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Day 20
It's been 2/3 of a month being a non-smoker. It's been nice, to tell you the truth. Even though I have been telling you stupid daily stories. It has helped me all the way. Even though you may not have had any part in my quitting, but like I have said, by you just reading this, you have given me the strength to keep it away!
I hate nicotine. It consumes all of my best friends. I feel like I am a better person because I don't have to be as dependant as they are.
I can't wait till softball season and test out my new lungs!
I hate nicotine. It consumes all of my best friends. I feel like I am a better person because I don't have to be as dependant as they are.
I can't wait till softball season and test out my new lungs!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Day 19
The date on this probably says I skipped a day, but it's just 12:10 am and I'm just getting around to it. Sorry. Anyways. Blagojevich is done? WOO HOO! Lol. What a loser. Who doesn't show up to their own impeachment trial?! I wonder if he is a smoker...
So, when I got my ticket back in November, I was given a court date. I didn't want to do that, so I just requested driving school. I went to class today for it, and NO TEACHER SHOWED UP! What the heck? We called the driving school office and they said, "There is no teacher assigned to that class..." What?! Wow. There's another A+ for Illinois! If we were on a grading scale for the past 10 years, we would be around a 1.2 GPA. I mean, Ryan did such a good job. I think the only good thing is Barack Obama. He has to be my third favorite thing about Illinois. He thirds the second place downtown Chicago which seconds the first, Chicago Cubs.
Either Barack Obama or the NO SMOKING laws...
So, when I got my ticket back in November, I was given a court date. I didn't want to do that, so I just requested driving school. I went to class today for it, and NO TEACHER SHOWED UP! What the heck? We called the driving school office and they said, "There is no teacher assigned to that class..." What?! Wow. There's another A+ for Illinois! If we were on a grading scale for the past 10 years, we would be around a 1.2 GPA. I mean, Ryan did such a good job. I think the only good thing is Barack Obama. He has to be my third favorite thing about Illinois. He thirds the second place downtown Chicago which seconds the first, Chicago Cubs.
Either Barack Obama or the NO SMOKING laws...
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Day 18
I woke up at 5:30 this morning. I folded some clothes, watched the news, showered and casually drove to work. Shouldn't it be like that everyday? Well, it was nice. It all started with me being in bed at 10 o'clock. Class got out early last night. It all just worked! I do have class tonight though. That is a bummer. I'm going to have to answer "kwesgjians" to get my "bonus poinsh." No offense towards professor Lee, but, he needs to work on his english.
I spend a lot of my time with Sarah and I noticed something. She makes up break times just to have a cigarette. Hmmm? I used to be that way. I would come up with a name for a period of time and it had the name "smokey" in it. It's fun to look back and laugh. I should have spent more time being taken over by Jesus, not nicotine. After I showered today, I was thinking about how good I smelled and it made me conscious of how I used to ruin that and go into work/school smelling like a loser. Think about it. You are a teacher/boss and you are evaluating your student/employee. There are two of them. One smokes, one doesn't. Doesn't your mind lean towards the non-smoker? Think of how dependant they make themselves look. They rely on a nasty rolled up death stick to keep their minds going. Is that someone you want working or representing you? No way.
I spend a lot of my time with Sarah and I noticed something. She makes up break times just to have a cigarette. Hmmm? I used to be that way. I would come up with a name for a period of time and it had the name "smokey" in it. It's fun to look back and laugh. I should have spent more time being taken over by Jesus, not nicotine. After I showered today, I was thinking about how good I smelled and it made me conscious of how I used to ruin that and go into work/school smelling like a loser. Think about it. You are a teacher/boss and you are evaluating your student/employee. There are two of them. One smokes, one doesn't. Doesn't your mind lean towards the non-smoker? Think of how dependant they make themselves look. They rely on a nasty rolled up death stick to keep their minds going. Is that someone you want working or representing you? No way.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Day 17
This is going to be really short. Some words of wisdom to you all; Set as many alarms in the morning as you can. I woke up late for work again today. That is my second write up of the month. I gotta get myself up in the morning. I don't know if it was Professor Lee's lecture last night that killed me, or if it was being exhausted in general. I don't know. Remember to set your alarm in the morning.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Day 16
This has nothing to do with what happened today.
I was recently tagged in a note on facebook that was not so much bashing liberals, but aiming only at the huge argumentative wall known as abortion. It was a note that talked about a group, FOCA (The Freedom of Choice Act). I have no clue why us as Christians would think it is a good idea to support such a group. But you have to think really hard before you say anything. It is our God given right to love people. I love everybody, and think murder is wrong. Abortion is murder, right? That is correct, it indeed is.
I am pro-life. I believe that abortion is wrong and disgusting. It is immoral and gives a bad image to women. It sounds so trashy to say, "I just got an abortion instead." BUT, even though I am a Christian individual, who has learned the ways of the Lord, knows that it is not out God given right to choose for these people. It is our God given right to love and to pray.
If you are against abortions, then utilize the most powerful thing the Lord has given us all; our love. Pray for these people, love them with your whole heart. Barack Obama is not pro-abortion. He is pro-CHOICE. Human can murder their wives, their co-workers, a complete stranger, whether it is legal or illegal, they will still have the choice.
P.S., I didn't smoke today. :)
I was recently tagged in a note on facebook that was not so much bashing liberals, but aiming only at the huge argumentative wall known as abortion. It was a note that talked about a group, FOCA (The Freedom of Choice Act). I have no clue why us as Christians would think it is a good idea to support such a group. But you have to think really hard before you say anything. It is our God given right to love people. I love everybody, and think murder is wrong. Abortion is murder, right? That is correct, it indeed is.
I am pro-life. I believe that abortion is wrong and disgusting. It is immoral and gives a bad image to women. It sounds so trashy to say, "I just got an abortion instead." BUT, even though I am a Christian individual, who has learned the ways of the Lord, knows that it is not out God given right to choose for these people. It is our God given right to love and to pray.
If you are against abortions, then utilize the most powerful thing the Lord has given us all; our love. Pray for these people, love them with your whole heart. Barack Obama is not pro-abortion. He is pro-CHOICE. Human can murder their wives, their co-workers, a complete stranger, whether it is legal or illegal, they will still have the choice.
P.S., I didn't smoke today. :)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Day 13-15
I understand that I haven't posted a blog in 3 days. I promised this wouldn't happen, so I am made a liar. Forgive me. To make up for it, you get to listen to what I did this weekend. Friday night, after work, I came home to poker. It was awesome. I knew it was going to be fun because my stepmom came in my room and asked me if I was hungry (I hadn't eaten all day). There's an awesome start. Next thing I know, I'm eating the best meatloaf of my life. Then I find out we are going to have an awesome turnout. Sweet! My night keeps getting better. We start up the tourney and I am the first out.
This is a setback. I'm pissed off and I go up in my room and play guitar to clear my head. It just sucks that the guy that took me out, was the drunkest of them all. Nobody was really liking this guy at all (no offense, Don). Once I started feeling better, I went downstairs looking to start a side-game. Only two people and the drunk dude wanted to play. Needless, to say, we didn't play. The came to a near closing and it was time for the drunken idiot to get going. I am getting so frustrated with this guy that I start pacing. After one lap, I look over and the guy is laying on the floor.
We carried his drunk you-know-what out to the car. Problem solved. After that, we played a cash game, I won over 100 dollares and we called it a night... Or so I thought. JB and I go up to McDonalds and treat ourselves. Upon return, he and I continue to play more poker. Forgive me for not clarifying what time it was, but we got back to my house at 3 in the morning. After lollygagging around, we decided to REALLY call it quits. JB left and I played another tournament online till 6 AM.
Saturday morning, I am awoke by a phone call at 8:30 that it was time to get up. What the heck, I'm not ready to be alive! But I had to because it was Sarah's graduation ceremony! The ceremony was a smooth sail (with a bit of tears from the Mother), and the lunch after was too. We went to Mongolian Barbecue up in Bolingbrook. We stopped to shop a little bit and Sarah finally spent her American Eagle gift card. We get back to the Krohn's and I sit down and find myself playing ANOTHER poker tourney online. I played it for 4 hours.
All of us decided to go to Sonic in Lockport. As we are looking at the menu and across the way, I spotted a CiCi's Pizza. I screamed with great joy at the thought of a pizza buffet. I was so excited. If I were a dog, my tail would so be wagging. We made our way there and I proceeded to eat 13 pieces of pizza and some dessert. It hurt so bad that I had to lay across poor Sarah in the back seat to be somewhat comfy.
Movie Gallery saved our evening with some B grade horror movies. I fell asleep, woke up, and went home, to fall asleep again. 7:30 rolled around, I got up, I went to work, I came home and went bowling in Woodridge. I did bad. I think my high game was a 115? Something of that class. Anywho, I came back to the N.L. and sat at Sarah's house. I played darts with Heather, Chris, and Hannah and got my butt whooped. Went to ANOTHER poker tourney and finished 11th out of 31. Not bad, I suppose....
I really enjoyed my weekend. I got to spend some time with everybody! I spent time with my dad, with my mom at the bowling alley, with my baby doll, with her family, and especially with Jesus. It was nice. I know I didn't mention it, but He was a huge part of my weekend too. Doing all these things makes me feel good that I didn't smoke. If you see a movie where they are playing poker, someone is smoking. If you watch a movie about bowling, someone smokes! I am so good!
This is a setback. I'm pissed off and I go up in my room and play guitar to clear my head. It just sucks that the guy that took me out, was the drunkest of them all. Nobody was really liking this guy at all (no offense, Don). Once I started feeling better, I went downstairs looking to start a side-game. Only two people and the drunk dude wanted to play. Needless, to say, we didn't play. The came to a near closing and it was time for the drunken idiot to get going. I am getting so frustrated with this guy that I start pacing. After one lap, I look over and the guy is laying on the floor.
We carried his drunk you-know-what out to the car. Problem solved. After that, we played a cash game, I won over 100 dollares and we called it a night... Or so I thought. JB and I go up to McDonalds and treat ourselves. Upon return, he and I continue to play more poker. Forgive me for not clarifying what time it was, but we got back to my house at 3 in the morning. After lollygagging around, we decided to REALLY call it quits. JB left and I played another tournament online till 6 AM.
Saturday morning, I am awoke by a phone call at 8:30 that it was time to get up. What the heck, I'm not ready to be alive! But I had to because it was Sarah's graduation ceremony! The ceremony was a smooth sail (with a bit of tears from the Mother), and the lunch after was too. We went to Mongolian Barbecue up in Bolingbrook. We stopped to shop a little bit and Sarah finally spent her American Eagle gift card. We get back to the Krohn's and I sit down and find myself playing ANOTHER poker tourney online. I played it for 4 hours.
All of us decided to go to Sonic in Lockport. As we are looking at the menu and across the way, I spotted a CiCi's Pizza. I screamed with great joy at the thought of a pizza buffet. I was so excited. If I were a dog, my tail would so be wagging. We made our way there and I proceeded to eat 13 pieces of pizza and some dessert. It hurt so bad that I had to lay across poor Sarah in the back seat to be somewhat comfy.
Movie Gallery saved our evening with some B grade horror movies. I fell asleep, woke up, and went home, to fall asleep again. 7:30 rolled around, I got up, I went to work, I came home and went bowling in Woodridge. I did bad. I think my high game was a 115? Something of that class. Anywho, I came back to the N.L. and sat at Sarah's house. I played darts with Heather, Chris, and Hannah and got my butt whooped. Went to ANOTHER poker tourney and finished 11th out of 31. Not bad, I suppose....
I really enjoyed my weekend. I got to spend some time with everybody! I spent time with my dad, with my mom at the bowling alley, with my baby doll, with her family, and especially with Jesus. It was nice. I know I didn't mention it, but He was a huge part of my weekend too. Doing all these things makes me feel good that I didn't smoke. If you see a movie where they are playing poker, someone is smoking. If you watch a movie about bowling, someone smokes! I am so good!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Day 12
It has been 12 days since the nicotine left my body. It still feels good. I had a huge supper today and afterword, I thought about how I would normally go outside the instant I was done eating and light a cigarette. Oh, it was so good. But then I realized, how pathetic is that? My diet included a serving of tar with a spoonful of nicotine. Sounds appetizing. Just imagining that picture in my head made me nauseous. It is a good tool to use in quitting smoking. Nikomas sent me these pictures when I was in the physical quitting part.
I know, sickening. But it's images like this that really do help. I know it seems odd, but trust me, it worked! Another good point is that I know I don't ever want to look like that. I know everybody says "That will never happen to me!" Wrong. Look at these two people. I'm sure they said that when they first started smoking. Now look at them. Sexy. Don't take the risk. As you can see, it's not worth it.Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Day 10 & 11
Why does laundry suck so much? It just feels like I am going to start a fire when I pick up a fresh dried cotton garment with my dried out claws. So in the winter time, I just decide to leave it in baskets laying around my room. It's so much easier to access anyways. Sorry, just a side thought.
Well, I realized that I actually missed two days, thanks to a good friend of mine (John Hajek). So, I am going to make up for that by just typing that this represents two days. It makes my life easier, so get over it.
I am truly convinced that writing about how much smoking sucks has really helped me stay away from it. I put myself in this mindset that smoking is just a burden on me and my friends/family. I mean seriously, which one of us does it benefit? It makes me look like a fool, and makes you think I am a fool. What can I get from it? This is me being very cynical, but I don't get high from it, it doesn't taste good, it smells like poop, and there is NO health benefits (I don't care what facts you tell me, there are NONE). So me sitting here writing this helps me hate it more!
Well, I realized that I actually missed two days, thanks to a good friend of mine (John Hajek). So, I am going to make up for that by just typing that this represents two days. It makes my life easier, so get over it.
I am truly convinced that writing about how much smoking sucks has really helped me stay away from it. I put myself in this mindset that smoking is just a burden on me and my friends/family. I mean seriously, which one of us does it benefit? It makes me look like a fool, and makes you think I am a fool. What can I get from it? This is me being very cynical, but I don't get high from it, it doesn't taste good, it smells like poop, and there is NO health benefits (I don't care what facts you tell me, there are NONE). So me sitting here writing this helps me hate it more!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Days 8 and 9
As you can see, I missed a day. Not a biggie. New president, eh? I am so excited to see some change. I am really happy that Barack was sworn in today with no flaws. A lot of people ask me, all the time, "How can you vote for a pro-choice candidate and still be a Christian?" Well, that answer was answered by a close friend of mine, Nikomas Perez.
I am almost 100 percent sure that Obama was the better politician, with better changes for America. He supports the end of this war. He is pro-labor unions, unlike McCain. He is all for boosting our economy back to full health. These are all awesome things, right? Well a lot of my left sided friends will say, "What about abortion?! What will he do for abortion??!?!?!" I simply say shananigans. Look at republicans. 20 out of the last 28 presidents were republicans. Not a single one of them has done anything to reverse the abortion laws. So how is that for dignifying?
Sorry, I didn't mean to get all political, but today is just such a political day! I really enjoyed Obama's speech. I also enjoyed seeing the celebrating. I also enjoyed knowing that smoking made me sick. I am not going to lie, but tonight, I took a puff of a cigarette. DO NOT THINK I AM GOING BACK! I did it for a self-research sort of thingy. I wanted to see how away I really was. The single puff made me light headed and dizzy. I immediatley felt sick. I then felt very dirty. I had to stop at Walgreens so I could buy some mouthwash. I needed that puff; it proved to me that I will never go back to those cancer-forming, nasty, habit-forming, health-ruining sin sticks ever again.
I am almost 100 percent sure that Obama was the better politician, with better changes for America. He supports the end of this war. He is pro-labor unions, unlike McCain. He is all for boosting our economy back to full health. These are all awesome things, right? Well a lot of my left sided friends will say, "What about abortion?! What will he do for abortion??!?!?!" I simply say shananigans. Look at republicans. 20 out of the last 28 presidents were republicans. Not a single one of them has done anything to reverse the abortion laws. So how is that for dignifying?
Sorry, I didn't mean to get all political, but today is just such a political day! I really enjoyed Obama's speech. I also enjoyed seeing the celebrating. I also enjoyed knowing that smoking made me sick. I am not going to lie, but tonight, I took a puff of a cigarette. DO NOT THINK I AM GOING BACK! I did it for a self-research sort of thingy. I wanted to see how away I really was. The single puff made me light headed and dizzy. I immediatley felt sick. I then felt very dirty. I had to stop at Walgreens so I could buy some mouthwash. I needed that puff; it proved to me that I will never go back to those cancer-forming, nasty, habit-forming, health-ruining sin sticks ever again.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Day 7
I got into a public swearing match today. It was testosterone on testosterone bull crap. Basically, a friend of mine and I got into a fight about nothing. I took it to a personal level, he brought it to a personal level. It was ugly. But I didn't smoke today. Actually, when I left the convention, there were close to 2o people smoking. The smell made me want to vomit.
I have really grown the opposite of addicted to cigarettes. I'm like a walking campaign for anti-smoking companies. It's nice to stand for something so awesome and positive. I am hopefully going to write a book about this (my journey to quitting) and send a message to teens and young adults everywhere. I would really like some feedback about this choice. I want to know if it is something you would read or just find stupid. I would love your support and ideas.
I have really grown the opposite of addicted to cigarettes. I'm like a walking campaign for anti-smoking companies. It's nice to stand for something so awesome and positive. I am hopefully going to write a book about this (my journey to quitting) and send a message to teens and young adults everywhere. I would really like some feedback about this choice. I want to know if it is something you would read or just find stupid. I would love your support and ideas.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Day 6
Have you ever felt like a giddy little school girl? I can't get that feeling out of my mind! I am at the 24th Cubs Convention. My sister and I got tickets and have been planning for this weekend since a little after Thanksgiving. I met Jim Hendry, general manager of the Cubs. I waved at Ernie Banks. I was 50 feet from Carlos Zambrano. This is going to be happening all weekend! The best part is, I'm not going to miss a minute of this because I am outside smoking.
There is nothing in it for me anymore. There is no incentive for me to keep buying cigarettes. I wouldn't find it enjoyable. I more than likely would not get that instant gratification anymore. It's nice to not have to be outside period. It's like -5 outside (not an exaggeration). I feel clean all the time and I love it.
Quitting smoking was awesome. I know I am always saying the same thing, but I am still just that excited! I love not smoking. Thank you Nikomas. You made me a better person.
There is nothing in it for me anymore. There is no incentive for me to keep buying cigarettes. I wouldn't find it enjoyable. I more than likely would not get that instant gratification anymore. It's nice to not have to be outside period. It's like -5 outside (not an exaggeration). I feel clean all the time and I love it.
Quitting smoking was awesome. I know I am always saying the same thing, but I am still just that excited! I love not smoking. Thank you Nikomas. You made me a better person.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Day 5
Today is the coldest day we have seen in about 10 years. It is so frigid outside when I got to work, I spilled some water outside and it instantly froze. If you are outside for more than just a couple minutes, your digits start to burn and hurt really bad. I was sitting on the couch at the Krohn's house and I started watching Fox News and saw that there was a plane crash in New York. This was the first fatal plane crash in two years. Two years? That is a good thing? I would want something more like 10 years between plane crashes! Two years?!
It is getting harder and harder to blog about smoking since I rarely think about it anymore. When I left work, I got in my car and thought about what I would be doing after work if it were a month and a half earlier. Obviously smoking a cigarette. It's nice not to be dependant on something so simple as my car window NOT being frozen. I remember when that used to be my biggest nightmare! Things are still going smoothly.
I will be packing later today for the Cubs Convention this weekend. Tomorrow morning, I am going downtown to stay at the Hotel Blake. There is a pool and a comfy getaway room. It should be nice to relax and get back into baseball mode! Go cubs go!!
It is getting harder and harder to blog about smoking since I rarely think about it anymore. When I left work, I got in my car and thought about what I would be doing after work if it were a month and a half earlier. Obviously smoking a cigarette. It's nice not to be dependant on something so simple as my car window NOT being frozen. I remember when that used to be my biggest nightmare! Things are still going smoothly.
I will be packing later today for the Cubs Convention this weekend. Tomorrow morning, I am going downtown to stay at the Hotel Blake. There is a pool and a comfy getaway room. It should be nice to relax and get back into baseball mode! Go cubs go!!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Day 4
Tonight was poker night. I'm sure you're wondering why I am at poker when I am supposed to have class. well , due to inclement weather, class was cancelled! Booyah! Anyways. I told the head of the league that I was going to be taking a break from poker. But class got cancelled and I wanted to go! I won tonight. It was a very nice rebound from last week when I got sucked out really bad by the worst poker player in the world. Anyways, this is the first blog about poker league. We get breaks about every hour. I was there for two of the breaks and I did not once even think about going outside to lightup. Well, it was also like 20 below. I remember when I thought it was a fad to get up and put my coat on with my friends and stand outside in the damaging cold and have a smoke. This makes me a sad person because that is the dumbest thing I think I have ever said. Cigarettes did nothing but empty my pockets. I'm still broke anyways, but I bought something more useful, like a pair of gloves.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Day 3
I had my first college math class today. It wasn't what I expected. The most difficult thing we cover, is the trigonomic identities, which I learned in March of 2008. This makes me sad. I don't remember if I said this in the last blog, but my physics class I am in is a joke too. We cover algebraic physics, not calculus based, which is what I was learning second semester of my Senior year. I am so mad at myself. I feel like I am wasting my money. I also started english today. Wow, what a crap shoot. Over the course of 13 weeks, we are writing 7 papers, which each have to be 4000 words. Writing was the only thing that kept me from getting in the "C" or "B" area. UGH!
Well, on my way to class tonight, something sort of funny happened. Me and Sarah carpool to class on Tuesday nights. Sarah never quit smoking, despite my choice (I'm not mad at her for no quitting nor am I trying to make it seem that way. This is just for my points sake). Well, we started driving and she couldn't get the window down. I told her to try pushing it down because it was frozen. She tried that and she tried banging on it. Inside I am laughing my pants off. I start to feel bad so the next side-street-stop sign we came to, I got out and pushed really hard and opened it. She smiled at me and said, "Thank you, baby!" She lit up, and we went on our way!.... Good story, right?
Did you notice anything about that story? Sarah smoked right in front of me, and I did nothing. I wasn't even thinking about smoking a cigarette. The smell was so strong and potent, but I didn't want to say anything because it didn't even really bother me. I just think it is a huge chunk of progress that I have been basically presented with cigarettes and have not even thought twice about them! Smoking-0 Me-1.
Well, on my way to class tonight, something sort of funny happened. Me and Sarah carpool to class on Tuesday nights. Sarah never quit smoking, despite my choice (I'm not mad at her for no quitting nor am I trying to make it seem that way. This is just for my points sake). Well, we started driving and she couldn't get the window down. I told her to try pushing it down because it was frozen. She tried that and she tried banging on it. Inside I am laughing my pants off. I start to feel bad so the next side-street-stop sign we came to, I got out and pushed really hard and opened it. She smiled at me and said, "Thank you, baby!" She lit up, and we went on our way!.... Good story, right?
Did you notice anything about that story? Sarah smoked right in front of me, and I did nothing. I wasn't even thinking about smoking a cigarette. The smell was so strong and potent, but I didn't want to say anything because it didn't even really bother me. I just think it is a huge chunk of progress that I have been basically presented with cigarettes and have not even thought twice about them! Smoking-0 Me-1.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Day 2
I started school today. I had Physics 101 with Dr. Lee. It got cancelled. It was kind of a nice introduction to my college career. "Campus will be closing at 7:30." I wish that happened every Monday and Wednesday! This is, obviously, the second day of blogging as a non-smoker. It still feels good to look back and see how pathetic I was. If I was ever given some sort of break, I would go out and smoke. We had a 10 minute break in class today and all I did was call J.B. Until I found out school was cancelled! Snow night! So basically, I am still trucking strong as a non-smoker. I am so proud of myself! Thank you again for reading. By simply reading this, you are supporting me, even if I don't know you read it.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Day 1
This is the first of thirty blogs of my non-smoking life. I am excited! I feel so good about myself now. When I am with my friends, I have the power to say, "Nope, I quit." I am so happy Nikomas came up with this awesome plan. I did cheat a little bit, but I am still happy with the result. I feel so clean and healthy. I love not smelling like smoke. I have such a new sense of pride. You have no clue how happy I get when someone asks me to go outside and smoke. All I do is give them a non-chalant glance/shake type of thing and loud and clear say, "I quit smoking, sorry." I feel really good about myself. It is probably the biggest feat I have ever accomplished. It wasn't an easy task, but it was worth it. Sorry, for making you read a giddy little school girls story. I am just so excited! Well, for the next 30 days, I will be blogging about being a non-smoker. Hope you enjoy reading!
Friday, January 9, 2009
Middle to the present
I had smoked for about three years. All though I'm only 18 years old, that does sound pathetic, I know. It was always a way for me to relax, or kill time as I called it. I am not going to lie, but smoking is enjoyable to me (Or was, rather). All of the people I was hanging around usually smoked, so I did it too. It's natural, it just happens like that. I was always afraid of being caught, you know, the usual teenager fear. That was a social event for me. The reason I have been blogging about smoking this whole time is because as of tomorrow, I am a 100% non-smoker. The nicotine will be out of my body. This is such an accomplishment to me. But I want to thank some people, first. Nikomas Perez is the man who put the whole thing together. This was his masterminded plan. Thanks, Niko. Ted Krohn was my accountability. He was the muscle that kept me bound in a non-smoking bind. Thanks, Ted. Stephen King was the man who would call me and give me encouragement. Although he did slip a little at the end, I really appreciate him helping me out. A lot of people did make it easy for me to slip a few times, but that's OK, I got past that. Last of all, I want to thank the Lord of Lords, the King of Kings, and the Savior of my life, Jesus Christ. Prayer and hope kept me going the whole time. Thank you, Lord for everything.
Now that the smoking rant is over, I will continue my 3-month-delayed story. All the bad people had influences on me. I started smoking pot, I started drinking at "partys"(Which I really don't understand why they are called parties. What are they celebrating? Getting wasted? That's something to celebrate!). It was just a bad time for me. I started getting into more parties which led to me experimenting more. I tried cocaine for the first time in my life at age 15. I did acid at 16, I smoked crack at 16, and I ate shrooms for about one and a half years. I was confused! One day I was smoking pot and got a phone call from my dad, telling me, and I quote "get my ass home." Of course I obeyed and hurried my way home. I get there and both of my parents are at my house... They have been divorced for 15 years. Well, needless to say, they were confronting me about a "drug problem." Which it was, don't get me wrong. They found out I was smoking pot, they told me Intervention style, and it was gone. Just like that. I had no urge to get high! To this day, I consider myself to be anti-drug. I love my life! But there is a vice which I still have. It's not an addiction or a problem, I just still drink at "parties." Does that make me a bad person? I don't know. I am still a confused kid.
Well, working at the bank is officially one of the greatest things to ever happen to me! I drive a 1998 Chevy Cavalier Z24 which I financed through this bank. I have a girl friend, Sarah, of a year and a half. I love my God. I have a passion for music. I consider myself a really good card player. I love the Cubs! Go Cubs Go! I am in school to be a Physics teacher. E=MC2. I make good money and my bills add up to a decent amount of money less than what I make! I am a mommas boy, but I live with my dad. Me and my dad bond over one thing: Texas Hold'em Poker. I have a ton of families (The Homerding's The Burns The Krohn's The Pate's).
I have gained 25 pounds since quitting smoking. I have anger problems. I am pretty sure I have anxiety issues. I have trust issues. I am very easy to "trigger." My prioritizing skills are horrible. I drink sometimes. I swear like a pirate sometimes. I forget who means the most to me. I don't show enough affection. I drive like a jerk. I lie sometimes.
We are all bad people sometimes. I try not to think of it as being so bad. All I do is erase it from my mind and beg the Lord for redemption. Don't let it get to you. That was my problem!
Well, now you know about me. Maybe I'll keep this blog updated someday!
Now that the smoking rant is over, I will continue my 3-month-delayed story. All the bad people had influences on me. I started smoking pot, I started drinking at "partys"(Which I really don't understand why they are called parties. What are they celebrating? Getting wasted? That's something to celebrate!). It was just a bad time for me. I started getting into more parties which led to me experimenting more. I tried cocaine for the first time in my life at age 15. I did acid at 16, I smoked crack at 16, and I ate shrooms for about one and a half years. I was confused! One day I was smoking pot and got a phone call from my dad, telling me, and I quote "get my ass home." Of course I obeyed and hurried my way home. I get there and both of my parents are at my house... They have been divorced for 15 years. Well, needless to say, they were confronting me about a "drug problem." Which it was, don't get me wrong. They found out I was smoking pot, they told me Intervention style, and it was gone. Just like that. I had no urge to get high! To this day, I consider myself to be anti-drug. I love my life! But there is a vice which I still have. It's not an addiction or a problem, I just still drink at "parties." Does that make me a bad person? I don't know. I am still a confused kid.
Well, working at the bank is officially one of the greatest things to ever happen to me! I drive a 1998 Chevy Cavalier Z24 which I financed through this bank. I have a girl friend, Sarah, of a year and a half. I love my God. I have a passion for music. I consider myself a really good card player. I love the Cubs! Go Cubs Go! I am in school to be a Physics teacher. E=MC2. I make good money and my bills add up to a decent amount of money less than what I make! I am a mommas boy, but I live with my dad. Me and my dad bond over one thing: Texas Hold'em Poker. I have a ton of families (The Homerding's The Burns The Krohn's The Pate's).
I have gained 25 pounds since quitting smoking. I have anger problems. I am pretty sure I have anxiety issues. I have trust issues. I am very easy to "trigger." My prioritizing skills are horrible. I drink sometimes. I swear like a pirate sometimes. I forget who means the most to me. I don't show enough affection. I drive like a jerk. I lie sometimes.
We are all bad people sometimes. I try not to think of it as being so bad. All I do is erase it from my mind and beg the Lord for redemption. Don't let it get to you. That was my problem!
Well, now you know about me. Maybe I'll keep this blog updated someday!
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